I Want to be Moved
The music surrounded me and I was not lost. There was no surrender to the external rhythm, no movement within my soul. Instead I stood there, mountain air flowing around me, the morning begging for something more from me - a letting go, a freedom needing to be experienced. I tried to give in and be a part of the moving on, listening for the beat and trying to express it. Nothing.
This experience happened the Monday before last during a morning movement session at my retreat. I pondered about it at the time, watching all the others writhing about without inhibition on the grand porch. Was it inhibition? No. I have always been the type to be the first on a dance floor, even if it meant dancing alone. I just could not find the flow. And I realized that I had become static in life - more rigid than normal in my routine. Sure I walk or do Yoga most days, but both of those have become more internally centered than externally experienced. I go within, work on breathing and relaxation when I engage in it. Not that this is wrong, but to come out of it and experience the world around me suddenly seemed incredibly odd when called to do so and I am not so happy about it.
So, to sooth my inner dancer, ragging at the lose of external connection, it is now time to expand my horizons and make some changes within my exercise practice. Sure, I could use self-hypnosis for motivation, but at the moment I am startled enough to find I need to reengage, so that should be enough. I spent yesterday looking for movement type classes, but I kept coming up with excuses not to sign-up. Bad timing, what about my knees, too far away, and the protest kept flowing. So, then I thought about DVDs and the inner protest was silent. Videos and like have always been a great inspiration to me for trying new things. It is how I began my yoga training (from a month of video, I joined a class, received private lessons and now am mostly on my own).
Movement. Action. Flow. Those are the key words for me. Whoa. There is one more - groove. I need the music. I need to feel my body and mind lost in the groove of motion and sound. And this thought led me to XFLOWSION, trainer Eric Paskel’s combination power yoga, martial arts, and ah yes, sweet music, dance. Live band (well, when they filmed one of the DVDs), surround sound, and the idea of toning up some of the stubborn softness that the walking and yoga never seem to touch. It sounds doable, dare I say it - even fun.
Maybe you are wondering why I am sharing these thoughts with you on a hypnosis blog? Several reasons, really. First, I promised to share with you some of my consciousness experiences from last week’s retreat and this was definitely a consciousness where I need to reconnect. Second, I am setting an intention here by allowing the words out of my head and onto the blog. As hypnotists we are often stuck in the mind and it is good to occasionally pay attention to the body. The third point is that hypnosis practices often include the idea of creating a health body. If we just listen to what our body really wants (going past the couch-sitting-I’d-rather-sleep thoughts), we can reach our goals. We can use exercise to relax (gosh knows I go there with yoga), to feel alive, and to be moved.
Perhaps at some point, I will reengage the unwinding path blog and see how the Xflowsion series of DVDs, books and audios do for me. I will keep you posted.
